Well, today was the last day of term two for my kiddos. It’s hard to believe that I won’t see them for a month, it kills me. I honestly can’t imagine not having them in my life; God has been good to knit our hearts together so quickly. I was sitting just observing them as they worked on their math review work and just thanking God for them. I was thinking of all that has transpired in my life thus far and how it was all training ground and preparation for this time in my life. I am living my dream, a dream that I feared would never come to fruition. God is so good!! It is easy to question God and doubt his promises in the difficult times but he is a God that does not change. His plans are to prosper us and not to harm us. Even the storms and hardships of life, the sin of others God uses. This life is like our classroom and it is full of quizzes and exams. I have always had an inward struggle with verses such as, “consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature, not lacking in anything.” (James 1:2-3) That was always one of those verses I would read quickly and say yeah, yeah ok but never truly believed. God has really changed my perspective and it has changed even who I am. Just like a student must study in preparation for the quizzes and test that they must take to pass a class. You must strive to do you best and its true you will struggle and even fail at times but even that is to be part of the lesson. Maybe you need to change the way you are preparing or training. Maybe you need a study partner or a new study partner. Sometimes those we study with are more of a distraction than a help. And the teacher is always there to help and wants to see us do well. It’s easy sometime to think, gosh this teacher is hard on us and gives us too much work but it’s for our good. And in the end when we do well on our final and do well in the class we see the teacher in a different light. Anyway, its just a thought but I am thankful for the perspective change and I can now more fully give thanks in all circumstances and especially more so in the “trials”. And I always try to remember Gods promises such as in Jeremiah 29:11, “ I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” God is good!
Oh and I just have to share the about the end of the day, all my kids escorted me up to where I catch the taxi to go home. What a sight and sound that was..ha. Anyways, they were all fighting over who would carry my bags and hold my hands..too bad I only have 2 hands. J The taxi parked on the side of the road and my boys packed the trunk with my bags then they ALL(about 20 out of 30) were embracing me at once. It was hard to stay balanced and it was a bit emotional, they were hugging me like they would never see me again. After about 5 minutes I was like its time for me to go, I love you all!!! They said we don’t want to go on break, we love you, we will miss you and as I got into the taxi they all reached out to grab my hand. The taxi began pulling away, which was packed full of people, and my little mob of rugrats chased us down the road until we reached a speed they could not keep up with. Ah, that touched my heart so deeply. These kids have changed so much in just 3 months; they are really opening up on a new level emotionally. It’s amazing how kids respond to love. But you know, I have changed as well. Like I said before..GOD IS GOOD!!!
